patience.

its something that i have had to work very hard at the past 4, going on 5, months. add one more month on top of that and you have a whopping

6 MONTHS

that have required and will continue to require more patience than..... something. not sure what. just think of something that requires lots and lots of forced patience.

thanks to really really great friends (one in particular and I think you know who you are, and selah! to you),

running,

a few journals,

the temple,

the beautiful literature contained in old books,

an edited copy of "love actually",

a wicked sewing machine,

music (especially you Damien),

sporadic improv and gaga in the basement,

and a few other simple blessings

i'm going to make it and will be more anxious than ever to serve the Lord.

i think he's trying to see how badly i really want to go on this mission.

well, it's going to take a whole lot more than a measly little 6 week delay and the worry of a denied visa to stop me.

i'm praying for softened hearts of those stubborn spanish government officials, and anyone is welcome to join in.

for now, i'm trying to learn to appreciate small towns (it's not working very well) and the simple life that doesn't include a raging schedule. and although i can feel my tendu slipping away as the minutes tick, its okay because i know i'm supposed to make this sacrifice for the one who gave everything to me.

so it's with patience that i will continue until that blessed day when i am finally walking the stunning streets of spain,wearing a mid-calf length skirt and shoes exclusively manufactured for comfort, and doing the hard work that i have waited so long to do.

a MUST see

The best film of the year, hands down.

Actually, perhaps the best film of ALL TIME.

I have always had a slight obsession with MJ and this film topped it off.

He is, without a doubt in my mind, the best entertainer to have ever lived.

And the best mover.

Ah, brilliance.

Currently All Smiles

My new home in about 4 months. Too bad I have to wait so long.

You are so beautiful and I cannot wait to meet you,

Bilbao, Spain.

A Dedication

I have to dedicate my post to a true original in every single sense of the word. I freaking love this gal for many reasons, such as these:

A. She loves to be upside down, which is one of my all time favorite orientations.

B. She shares my dreams for Beckon. Most may think I'm silly, but she understands and dreams big too.

C. She is the ONLY person I think I will ever know that fully understands what I'm thinking when I get dressed. (Why not dress in a "costume" when you go out?)

D. AND she agrees with me when I say that matching is lame and boring.

E. I appreciate her appreciation for my need to splurge on Marc Jacobs.

F. She loves San Francisco as much as me.

G. She also feels that searching for the perfect park is a great way to spend a Sunday afternoon.

H. The dance parties in her room are killer.

I. She's a graphic designer and adores letterpress, which pretty much automatically makes her rad.

J. She was totally cavalier and cracking jokes as we searched for her stolen car.

K. She owns a pair of Louboutin's.

L. Her hair. I think I need not expound.

M. Patty Griffin has also captured her heart.

N. It's because of her that I find posters in my bed and taped to my sunroof. Oh Edward...

O. She has a skull on her dresser.

P. She can always find a time and a place to wear a cat/giraffe on her anterior.

Q. She's honest. No unneccessary fluff ever creeps out of her mouth.

R. She too must make frequent stops at Anthro.

S. She has a moustache ring.

T. She does things like this.

U. She shares my daily desire to eat Mexican food.

V. She knows what it feels like to have massive armloads of ugly sweaters and vintage shirts at Thriftown.

W. When she teaches in Relief Society everyone lets out a sigh of relief because we all know that we finally get a decent lesson.

X. She also prefers San Fran's chilly weather. You can't wear scarves in warm weather.

Y. She loves my lemon cake!

Z. If I were to pan out awards to people that I know, she would recieve the "coolest person ever" award.

Happy Birthday Aar. You rock my world.

Pleasure

One word for the most incredible thing I have ever done:

Gaga

I think it's safe to say that I had never truly danced before I did Gaga. It's amazing how much you think you know until you do something and you realize you really don't know anything at all. Something as simple as "pulling your bones" makes so much sense. Separating your flesh from your bones brings about sensations that aren't felt by moving your muscles. It's astonishing how much you can discover if you think about something in a different way. If you understand what I mean when I say

"float"

"quake"

"find curves"

"slap"

then you are one of the incredibly lucky ones who has experienced the movement language called Gaga. If not then you must seek it out... even if you've never danced a step in your life. You will actually probably understand Gaga beter than I can when I have danced hardcore my entire life.

Thank you, sincerely, Ohad. You are brilliant.

Some may think this post is pure gibberish, but for me it is quite profound.

look for a little something plaid

A sample of what will soon be my new collection.

And perhaps these as well, just because they make me happy.

A Must See

I cannot get enough of this video and it has been this way for months. Perhaps my favorite youtube video of all time:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlfKdbWwruY

I love this demonstration of the universality of dance and movement. Literally nothing brings people together the way dance can. Regardless of it's simplicity, Matt's dance was brilliant and brought smiles to many. I only wish I would have thought of this first!

Kudos, Matt!